Depression

The colors become less bright
do I run or turn Black & White

KAS

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Its mists disperse
in quantities unconcerned
I wander in the tall grass
wondering of bugs
disconcerning ones
of lust and blood

Please tell me
what it is you want

KAS

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The words today seem unclear
and nothing stands in the way of
my dark thoughts, sad words

You seem to scream
in the way I always want
and nothing comes of it

I write these useless words
and still it quivers
in my hands
unsteady in actions
as well as my own
useless thoughts

KAS

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The angelic children
raised their hands
to upset his long blond hair
in evenly soft strokes
he wonders
why nearly all of their eyes
refuse to speak
they gently grasp
the light strands
pulling, snapping
until the only remains
sought the wind
dancing in gold
whispering of white wine
why, he thinks
do they not call him by
his real name.

KAS

Glass of Tea

Why do I feel
I can no longer
furfill your glass
of tea

I try and pour
no end, or more

I fear the answer
I grasp its handle
and all my strenth and more

...not a single drop will pour

KAS

The Army

It takes from you
what it wants, it needs
it fills you with
motivation
that mends the wounds
it surrounds you
with the same illness
to make you believe
you belong

You form to it
like a dress
long adjusted
to your size
it tickles you
if you cry
it comforts
if you seek
it arouses as you please

But at no time
do you choose
not to follow

-KAS

Invisible Rose

You could only see it
as a reflection
nothing more
it's vibrant colors
and fragile vase
full of secrets

It is comforting
to the touch
and pleasing
to the eye

But who am I
to say
It was ever
really there?

-KAS

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It's a night
like no other
and dreams cast
shadows
like a story
behind closed doors
so many voices
an army
an army of many
thoughts, choice
loves, losses
I cry for you
for anyone
willing to listen
to a moment
a moment of darkness
here in the folds
of life.

-KAS

Advice

An angel wispers in my ear
"Tell no one, for not even I can seal your fate"
The rocks crumble at a breath from his thoughts

Fate comes to me to say
"The power you hold is no stronger than a feather,
but no weaker than the same feathers agility"

And then at last
My tears spoke to me
"Don't cry, my bird- Books never close, they only reside unread"

-KAS

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The complications of love
couldn't be explaineded
in a million poems

KAS

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Plenty of roses lie
untouched throughout
their life
no one to enjoy
their beauty
or feel the stab
of a tiny thorn
protecting
its delicate flower

-KAS

Over Tired

I just wanted you to know
that I realize
why the pain must exist
but I just don't
understand
why it must always
exist in me

-KAS

Agile

Becoming lissome
valuable limitlessness
altering past beliefs
of my own abilities
his nurturing words
and anti sensitivities
are breaking down
my inhibitions
a wonderful
alteration of myself
unearthed slowly
learning to modulate
the key
in my own composition
that I call
my life.

-KAS

Wandering with ink

There are so many words
thoughts, feelings
uncertainties
Dreams, irrational phrases
ignorant beliefs
of life the way
that I write it as
I don't record everything
just the poems
that flow onto paper
like drugs
into societies blood
quick, unrehearsed
contemplating
not censored
for eyes, I write
for myself and me alone
to release a knot
that's inside of me
and only is relieved
in this form

-KAS

Falcon

A bird
Who's strength
is beyond doubt
or compromise
it's sound
rolling off the tongue
easily missed
but instantly
acknowledged
seeking
through lands
learning daily
a representation
of my childhood
reflected
in a soul
undeniably
certain
in his identity

~KAS

Dreams

What happens
in sleep
Dream, fantasies
wonder
enjoyment
Endless possibilities

Do you think
contemplate
converse
or do you just exist
as you would
on a regular
daily basis

Inhuman powers
uneasy perseverance
all possibilities
an unconscious
misunderstanding
of life
as you would
choose it to be

-KAS

Sister

I remember
Being that youthful
ignorant, beautiful

School days
same worries
and pressures

Same love
for music, the power
wonder, delusion
of days past
lost in voice
always happy
with spoken tones

Lost causes
new experiences
many paths
to follow

All that
and I still know
nothing I do
or say
will pick that path for you

-KAS

You

In my dreams
your eyes still haunt me
my memories
all to clear
sometimes for days
I can avoid my thoughts

-KAS

Eyes

When asking me if I was o.k.
I responded correctly
observing his unaffection
towards me, throughout
the three morning hours
I maintained strong eyes
as to not mirror my soul

I enjoyed laughing at his behavior
and his eye contact
Only a few times
did his eyes get lost
in thoughts about me

I realize
he is not a man
to go unsexed

I proved to him
that the thought of him
going elsewhere
didn't bother me

How many lies
can be portrayed
through my
perceivably innocent
eyes.

-KAS

Inside of ignorance

The disolution of awareness left me
a hollow instinct of what was before
and distant footsteps alure me
unto the mighty force
hence came my distant sorrow
that swallows me a whole

I bury heat and softness
an all new pain appears
it's full of fear and tension
of sorrow through the years

A man I once thought kingship
now hardly owns a name
some disrespect I hold back
for that is who to blame

My insides tear free from
not ignorance nor niave
from other layers of it
that years ago, I believed

KAS